Thursday, February 25, 2016

You will make it

You will make it. 

This storm won't defeat you.

There will be tears. There will be pain. Your heart will feel as though it is breaking in a million pieces.

But you will make it.

You won't always understand. You will question why you have to endure the most difficult journey of your life.

But you will make it.

You will hurt. You will feel depleted. You will feel bruised. You will feel as though all the strength you had within you has been sucked dry.

But you will make it.

You at times won't have the words to pray. You will feel alone. 

But you will make it.


How do I know you will make it?

Because my husband was diagnosed with cancer on December 30th, 2014.

And we made it.

Because he endured 8 cycles of high dose chemotherapy.

And we made it.

Because he was hospitalized for over 150 days.

And we made it.

Because our income was cut in half and our expenses greatly surpassed our income.

And we made it

Because tears soaked my pillows at night and my heart was broken.

And we made it.

Because my children didn't understand why their daddy was sick.

And we made it.

Because I saw my husband hooked up to IV's, getting platelet and blood transfusions and experiencing the side effects of chemotherapy.

And we made it.

Because sometimes I felt as though I was crawling towards the finish line and the road felt so lonely.

And we made it.

I know you will make it because there is a God

He hears your prayers.
He sees your tears.
He knows you are hurting.
He knows you don't understand.
He sees your broken heart.

And He speaks. Through the storm, and the wind, and the beating rain, I can hear His voice telling you:

"You will make it.  This storm will not kill you. This mountain will not defeat you. This road will not destroy you. You will make it."


He was there with Daniel in the lion's pit.
He was there with Joseph in the prison.
He was there with Hannah during the years of infertility.

He was there with David while he was on the run.
He was there with Esther in the palace.
He was there with Moses in the wilderness.

And He is there with you.

You will make it.


Tuesday, February 23, 2016

God is still in control

On December 30, 2014 my husband was diagnosed with cancer. He was 29 at the time and our son was 4 and daughter 3. In the matter of minutes our world was turned upside down. During 2015 my husband was hospitalized 10 times. He endured 8 cycles of chemotherapy each cycle requiring a two week hospital stay. He required platelet and blood transfusions and his WBC would get so low that if acquiring a simple cold was incredibly dangerous.We were reduced to one income. Many nights my children would ask me why their dad was sick.

It was the most difficult year. My heart broke as I saw my husband hooked up to IV's that were dripping chemo into his body. There were days I felt like I was crawling towards the finish line. Many days I put a smile on my face for others to see but I was broken inside. Our plans had been shattered. Our life completely changed. And I wondered why us? Why my husband? Why did my children have to endure separation from their dad? At times the pain was unbearable. Nights were consumed with tears. There were times when I had no words to pray. Times when I felt like I couldn't take another step.

But I held on to God. I clung to His promises. When the words couldn't come, I offered my tears as prayers. And He saw us through.

He healed.
He provided.
He gave us peace.
He surrounded us with comfort.
He clothed us with strength.
He helped us endure the biggest storm we ever faced.

He loved us.
He spoke to us.
He encouraged us.
He wrapped His arms around us.
He saw us through. He got us to the other side.

When I write these blogs I don't desire millions to read them. I am not writing them with the purpose that a blog post goes viral. I am writing for the one.

So for the one who is hurting may I encourage you that God sees you pain.
For the one who feels invisible God knows your name.
For the one who is mourning, God will comfort you.
For the one who lacks direction, God will guide you.
For the one whose plans have been uprooted, God is in control.
For the one who is enduring the most difficult storm, God will see you through.

This chapter of your life may produce tears. It may hurt. It may be one that you want to end so badly, but God will get you to other side. He has not abandoned you. He has not forgotten you.

So for the one whose world has turned upside down you will make it because God is still in control.